1. |
Dreams
03:56
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Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom
Well, who am I to keep you down?
It's only right that you should play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
And what you had
Ooh, what you lost
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say, women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You'll know
Now here I go again, I see the crystal vision
I keep my visions to myself
But it's only me who wants to wrap around your dreams, and
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell, dreams of loneliness?
Like a heartbeat drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
And what you had
Ooh, what you lost
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know
You'll know
Oh, you'll know
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2. |
Phone Tag
03:58
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And now I’m at the stage of life
where we just play phone tag
and we apologize
for not keeping in touch
and all the tethers I had
to that version of me
are just memories
thoughts I used to have
and we just play phone tag
and we just play phone tag
I’d say to leave a voicemail
if it didn’t make me anxious
I’ve got a dozen unread messages
and I don’t know how to fix this
every day it builds up
the amount of guilt I’m holding
but it gets even harder
to tell you how I’m doing
the world continues spinning
and I continue hiding
I don’t wanna facetime
and tell you why I’m crying
I’m scared you’ll say it’s my fault
you know I would believe it
I’m scared that I’m too different
I’m scared you’ll see me bleeding
and now I’m at the stage of life
where we just play phone tag
and we apologize
for not keeping in touch
and all the tethers I had
to that version of me
are just memories
thoughts I used to have
and we just play phone tag
and we just play phone tag
it’d be nice to hear your voice
but I’m bad at making plans
my head is full of noise
and I don’t know if I can
It’s hard to reach out
I’m scared of things changing
Staring out the window
I wonder if she hates me
the world continues spinning
and I continue bleeding
I don’t wanna facetime
and tell you why I’m grieving
some parts of are my fault
if you can believe it
I don’t wanna hear “I’m sorry”
I don’t wanna make you feel it
and now I’m at the stage of life
where we just play phone tag
and we apologize
for not keeping in touch
and all the tethers I had
to that version of me
are just memories
thoughts I used to have
and we just play phone tag
and we just play phone tag
I used to be able to walk down the street
And you’d be there waiting for me
Spending our down time lazing about, I
Wonder if you think of me
We used talk about all of our dreams
About all the places we’d be
We sat on the grass and hysterically laughed
I’d see you look over at me
but now I’m at the stage of life
where we just play phone tag
and we apologize
for not keeping in touch
and all the tethers I had
to that version of me
are just memories
thoughts I used to have
and we just play phone tag
and we just play phone tag
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3. |
The Shadow Around Me
03:50
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How am I meant to trust what you say
It was so easy to turn me away
Some sister you turned out to be
The violet light in my eyes is the only thing left I can see
I see what I meant to you
Now I’ve got nothing to lose
Faced with the danger you turned me loose
I’m not gonna risk it and give you another chance to choose
Come and see what you made me to be
Now I know what you meant by family
I used to always look up and see
The light that cast the shadow around me
Come and see what you made me to be
Now I know what you meant by family
I used to always look up and see
The light that cast the shadow around me
You come to me but you bring the girl
I stand there and ask you and try to discern
Turns out he was right about how you felt
You tossed me aside and decided to switch me with somebody else
I see what I meant to you
Now I’ve got nothing to lose
Faced with the danger you turned me loose
I’m not gonna risk it and give you another chance to choose
Come and see what you made me to be
Now I know what you meant by family
I used to always look up and see
The light that cast the shadow around me
Come and see what you made me to be
Now I know what you meant by family
I used to always look up and see
The light that cast the shadow around me
You said you’d save me from monsters
But who’s gonna save you from me?
I payed an unpayable cost here
I wish you could feel what I feel
Echoes of moments, of faces, of voices
I push them away with a swipe of my hand
I made unchoosable choices
You can’t understand
You said you’d save me from monsters
But who’s gonna save you from me?
I payed an unpayable cost here
I wish you could feel what I feel
Echoes of moments, of faces, of voices
I push them away with a swipe of my hand
I made unchoosable choices
You can’t understand
Come and see what you made me to be
Now I know what you meant by family
I used to always look up and see
The light that cast the shadow around me
Come and see what you made me to be
Now I know what you meant by family
I used to always look up and see
The light that cast the shadow around me
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4. |
Everything (feat. Koa)
02:47
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the night you fell asleep on the phone
and I listened for a while
I couldn’t bear to leave you alone
I know that you know this
but it’s hard not to smile
I don’t ever wanna see you go
put your hand on my heart
like you wanted to
I tried to keep it secret
but I wanted you (so bad)
put your hand on my cheek
and I’ll lean into you
You’re so good (I'm stunned)
you’re everything I want
I wanna hold your hand
and give you all my love
Wanna tell you that I mean
everything I said
Wanna give you all of me
I don’t wanna be your friend
you sat there watching me
your knees to your chest
hiding your face behind your drink
we stayed up late
we let the time pass
didn’t feel worth it to have to sleep
put your hand on my heart
like you wanted to
I tried to keep it secret
but I wanted you (so bad)
put your hand on my cheek
and I’ll lean into you
You’re so good (I'm stunned)
you’re everything I want
I wanna hold your hand
and give you all my love
Wanna tell you that I mean
everything I said
Wanna give you all of me
I don’t wanna be your friend
I hold onto everything you say
And I get the sense everything has changed
So reach out and I’ll hold you just the same
And I get the sense everything has changed
I hold onto everything you say
And I get the sense everything has changed
So reach out and I’ll hold you just the same
And I get the sense everything has changed
put your hand on my heart
like you wanted to
I tried to keep it secret
but I wanted you (so bad)
put your hand on my cheek
and I’ll lean into you
You’re so good (I'm stunned)
you’re everything I want
I wanna hold your hand
and give you all my love
Wanna tell you that I mean
everything I said
Wanna give you all of me
I don’t wanna be your friend
I hold onto everything you say
And I get the sense everything has changed
So reach out and I’ll hold you just the same
And I get the sense everything has changed
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5. |
Forget Me
03:58
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If you could see how fast it goes
If you could feel it you would know
I have to run to keep up while everything moves on without me
if you could feel my heart right now
I fall behind while it all slows down
I have to run to keep up and just hope you won't forget me
if you could see it's not that far
you'd understand why I try so hard
and have these sleepless nights
I reach in and pull me out
I dig deep, won’t let me down
it’s never enough time
I hope you understand
I’m only treading water, never on land
And when I reach the shore
I hope you’ll know what it all was for
If you could see how fast it goes
If you could feel it you would know
I have to run to keep up while everything moves on without me
if you could feel my heart right now
I fall behind while it all slows down
I have to run to keep up and just hope you won't forget me
I’m afraid of leaving behind
Parts of me I thought were mine
I’m full of all these memories
But there’s a life I chose to live
More afraid of missing it
I hope they come along with me
I hope you come to know
I’m spending my time trying to grow
And when I reach the end
I hope you’re still my friends
If you could see how fast it goes
If you could feel it you would know
I have to run to keep up while everything moves on without me
if you could feel my heart right now
I fall behind while it all slows down
I have to run to keep up and just hope you won't forget me
either go for it or don't, there's no in-between
I'm not gonna hold me back
and as much as I hold onto history
if you let go I won't chase your hand
either go for it or don't, there's no in-between
I'm not gonna hold me back
and as much as I hold onto history
if you let go I won't chase your hand
If you could see how fast it goes
If you could feel it you would know
I have to run to keep up while everything moves on without me
if you could feel my heart right now
I fall behind while it all slows down
I have to run to keep up and just hope you won't forget me
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6. |
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aaahhhh
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7. |
The Calm
01:53
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it’s vivid and brilliant
I’m scared it’ll fade
the memories surface
like frogs in the rain
I trip on the street
so I lay in the grass
I close my eyes
I’m scared it’ll pass
I feel like
I’ll open my eyes
and wake up in your bed
I’ll go to your kitchen
and tap on your head
you’ll swat at my hand
and you’ll pass me a coffee
she’s sleeping on the couch
so we try to walk softly
I sit on the floor
while you go to wake her up
and the feeling I’m feeling
is filled up with love
she grumbles and tells you
to leave her alone
but she pats my face
and I feel like I’m home
she finally sits up
and I sit at her feet
you sit down next to her
my chin on your knee
I capture the moment
as clear as I can
you see it in my face
and you reach for my hand
you kiss my knuckles
she links our fingers
there’s talk about breakfast
the softness lingers
you kiss my forehead
she wants to act tough
but I see in her eyes
the feeling is love
but I open my eyes
I’m not at your place
by the time it was over
I was years out of state
so I walk back home
with grass in my eye
you didn’t call to say the news
and I still wonder why
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8. |
Trusted Me
04:41
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taking my time
Basking in the beautiful sunrise
Feeling the sunshine
Letting it fill me with strength of mind
You know exactly how I feel right now
I know what I should do but I don’t know how
I want to ask her how
I’m supposed to walk around
Pretending like I know what I’m doing
She always told me that
I should go and not look back
I know that she could always see right through me
Every step I take
I feel her watching over me
Though I can’t see her
I am bound to her through loyalty
She told me not to be afraid
To follow the truth in me
Though I am scared I know
Without a doubt she trusted me
stealing moments
tearing myself from the work desk
trying to keep up
resting my mind ‘cause I’m not my best
she’d know exactly what I’d need to do
she’d give me grace and tell me I’ll pull through
I want to ask her how
she thought that I could turn around
and act like I knew what I was doing
she always told me that
I should trust and take a chance
but I can’t lean on her now that I’m hurting
Every step I take
I feel her watching over me
Though I can’t see her
I am bound to her through loyalty
She told me not to be afraid
To follow the truth in me
Though I am scared I know
Without a doubt she trusted me
I want to ask her how
I’m supposed to walk around
smiling like I’m okay without her
she always told me that
I would one day find my path
I have to be okay walking alone here
Every step I take
I’m filled with more and more fatigue
I can’t see her
But I just know she’s looking out for me
She told me not to be afraid
To follow the truth in me
Though I am scared I know
Without a doubt she trusted me
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9. |
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If I could jump on a plane right now I would
there’s a lot that I would do, to bring me there to you
I lean my cheek on the window, old songs play in my head
I feel the way I always wanted as a kid
I ask myself if it’s too soon
I play back our moments in wonder
I lay awake in bed in my room
I think that I might love her
It’s funny feeling so perceived,
There are things I see in you that match things you see in me
Remember when you told me you loved the way I thought?
For once I’m not waiting for the other shoe to drop
I ask myself if it’s too soon
I play back our moments in wonder
I lay awake in bed in my room
I think that I might love her
I hear your heart
Resting my head on your chest
Life is hard
But with you I’m finally at rest
I show my cards
All the ones I have left
The moment’s ours
It has been since we confessed
I word things weird
but you read it how I mean it
I need you near
I reach for you in my sleep and
I face my fears
And for once it doesn’t bite me
It’s suddenly clear
What I see in your eyes
I want to say
all the words that I’ve thought
it’s not that day
but I’ll store the words in my heart
and when I’m compelled
I’ll tell you about the first summer
when I thought to myself
“I think that I might love her”
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10. |
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11. |
That Easily
02:39
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And now I’m back at the start again
Wondering where I’ll find future friends
And will the world be kind to me
Not everything comes that easily
I ask myself if I’m ready
to move on from the things I’m grieving
They say the answer’s inside of me
Not everything comes that easily
But even so, maybe they were right
And someday I’ll find peace again
The comfort calls in the dead of night
A moment of abstract reasoning
She sent me there for a purpose
And someday I’ll do the same
If there’s one thing that I’m sure of
I’ll remember their names
And now I’m back at the start again
Wondering where I’ll find future friends
And will the world be kind to me
Not everything comes that easily
Will I hold my head up high
Have the best years already passed me by
Will I ever set me free
Not everything comes that easily
I ask myself if I’m ready
to move on from the things I’m grieving
They say the answer’s inside of me
Not everything comes that easily
I reach for the those of parts of me
The things I was always treasuring
I remember the lovely things
Not everything comes that easily
I ask myself if I’m ready
Not everything comes that easily
And now I’m back at the start again
Wondering where I’ll find future friends
And will the world be kind to me
Not everything comes that easily
Will I hold my head up high
Have the best years already passed me by
Will I ever set me free
Not everything comes that easily
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12. |
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Time is an illusion that helps things make sense
So we're always living in the present tense
It seems unforgiving when a good thing ends
But you and I will always be back then
You and I will always be back then
You and I will always be back then
You and I will always be back then
Singing,
Will happen, happening, happened
Will happen, happening, happened and
Will happen again and again
'Cause you and I will always be back then
If there was some amazing force outside of time
To take us back to where we were
And hang each moment up like pictures on a wall
Inside a billion tiny frames, so that we could see it all
It would look like
Will happen, happening, happened
Will happen, happening, happened and
Will happen again and again
'Cause you and I will always be back then
'Cause you and I will always be back then
'Cause you and I will always be back then
That's why
You and I will always be best friends
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